20th, I want it to fall by soon. But yet, I don't.
I meant it when I say 'I don't'. As much as I really do miss you and want you here. Badly. I don't. All the questions and doubts are piling up my mind. I wanna ask you, confront you. Let you know how I feel. But you're not here. I don't wanna worry you while you're in HK now. And that asking you in face would be better for me to accept the reality (If the outcome is negative).
*Please don't disappoint me. Because someone like you, is hard to come by.
