10th, the bittersweet day of December.

10 years ago, I went through the pain.
I held my breath and bit my lips.
After 12 long hours, you were in my arms.
So tiny, so fragile yet I felt you were stronger than I am.

Here I am, 10 years later.
Half way round the world, and I miss you so.
3 months ahead and I'll go through this pain yet again.
It was you, my miracle, who made me strong and wise.
I can only be stronger when my 2nd miracle arrives and I will make things right.

Happy Birthday my little angel. I hope this christmas will bring you joy and happiness which I couldn't have provided you back then. I love you with all my heart and you will never be forgotten. I hope to meet you one day and have you in my arms once again.

My family, my home.

As I wonder back to the past, to where I once lived for the moment, where I once lived only for myself, my happiness and no one else. Those moments where I pole like no other business, where I do crazy stuff with the craziest people, where I do and live however I please.

Thou I know its mare impossible to live that way ever again, it hurts me a little. My friends whom I love dearly, my family whom I treasure deeply and a country I call home. I never thought it'd be this tough to be away but these feelings have proven me wrong. The great desire to leave everything just to be living like how I used to be, to be living in my comfort zone with everything has been lay out for me. I've always thought living aboard will be fun and oh-so-great, to be able to live in a huge country, to be able to see the world. But something in me is calling me back home and it's getting louder than ever.

For the man I call my husband, for this unborn little bean, for what I call my own family. I will be strong. I will live even if it means living out of my comfort zone. Because I'm no longer living for myself, I'm living for my family.

Counting my days .

No matter where I go in Singapore, every food has this basic taste. For instance, every chicken rice stall at any coffeeshop will have a very similar taste, every char quay teow will have that dark sweet sauce. They each have their unique taste, that taste which we could proudly say that it's Singapore style(even thou, we really just stole it from a neighboring country and modify a little). 
Being away for 2 months now, I could almost cry thinking of all my favorite food! Even if you use the exact same ingredients, or even when a restaurant name it the Singapore style laksa or char quay teow, it's just not the same. Soy sauce differ a little here, texture of the noodles differ a little here, alittle here and there do adds up and it ain't the same unique taste any longer :(

Picture perfect.

You could choose to be rich in monetary and be selfish, and limited friends and love will be surrounding you.
You could choose to be rich in happiness and generousity, and limitless people will wanna be your friend.


There are 2 main groups of people whom define you as a being. Mainly, friends and family.
In life, friends are who you are. The group you chooses to be friends with will ultimately shape you and influence you.
But, way before that, way before you get to choose who you want to be friends with, it is your parents who build your foundation, your moral in life.
Parents are given to you in life, something you can't control nor choose. Vise versa, you are created and given to your parents.

The cycle of life has been way more fascinating to me now that I have something growing in me. It amaze me on how complex a human being is, but with just an yolk and a sperm could slowly evolve into what you call a Fetal and eventually into a baby. Women are simply just so amazing, externally and internally!

Right now even thou my baby is still in the evolving stage, it's growing out its little hands and legs bud, it is just so picture perfect to me. Looking at the ultrasound really gave me a huge relief that THERE IS REALLY A "BABY" IN ME!! (And that I'm not just growing fat-.-)

This time I will do my best to protect my child, this time I will be a proper mom whom a child needs, this time I will never in my life let you go.


And this is what I call, Love at first sight.

Sick like a goldfish.

Losing my voice, losing my appetite, losing my head.

Maybe I'm just homesick, maybe my body is trying to adept,or maybe im really falling sick!
I miss Kim Seng road char quay teow, Joo Chiat place hokkien mee, Queenstown shopping centre laksa, Eunos mrt bak kut tay, upper Thomson crispy Prata, and many more):

I love my food more than anything else. (Even my bags!)

Too much cream and lack of alcohol..

Has been 2 weeks now since I had a single drop of alcohol! Good job I'd say. Intending to keep it up for as long as I could:D
 But my mouth has took it's attention towards CREAM!!! Not a very good thing isn't it:/ judging that I used to hate whipped chip on my frappies, I'm actually loving it now! Especially on fruit pies!!! Be it milkshake, smootie or frappies, im having them on like almost thrice per week basis. oh brother, this has got to cut and end soon before i get to a no-return stage :X
Sounds like a true American yah:P